Someone, anyone, can you hear me? I scream louder and louder but to no avail. No one is there I see this clearly through all veils.
I give and I give, they take and they take, my soul forever bends is this an attempt to witness me break. I feel the pressure is heavy surrounding me steady, I try to breath and stay calm, for I know what’s at stake and I have to push on. I ask myself are you ready?
My place of peace is under siege, I’m being held hostage, I feel like I’m a prisoner, I’m learning to surrender to her and, to whatever life may have instore for me. Stressful situations and intense circumstances increasing the difficulty to manage my inner state, I walk alone on my journey, all these people around but none can truly relate.
I never would act with the intent to bring harm, I love with deep compassion. I rejoice with the light hearted, and I also become comrades with who some may regard as the savages.
I open my heart so my heart gets crushed, but again and again she rises from her own dust. I make myself so soft and so weak, this is the only way I feel is to be truly strong, but at times it gets hard but all these things that I found easy aren’t around they’ve all I found to abandon and leave me.
Alone here I sit, sitting I try to find my inner bliss, but she’s not in my sight, and I can no longer feel her in my heart. When will this end, I guess when I can find where she starts.
Emotions, don’t become too attached, just continue to surrender. For if not dear one you’ve met your most deadliest match.